Defining Moments...

I believe that everyone has defining moments in their lives- some people make the most of those moments and others (like myself) just let those times slip by us. I let something "slip" by me today and I now regret not taking that moment and doing something with it. I have always allowed others to help me define myself... I make bold statements about how I would handle things or how I would do something different and when the opportunity presents itself to make a difference in my life; I sit by in a passive manner. I disappointed myself today and I hope that I can teach my daughters to be more assertive- to stand up and define them!
So, this is a list of "I wants" for my girls...
I want for Alivia and Audrey to be so much more than I am... I want for them to set goals and actively work to achieve them... I want for my girls to be all and do all. I don't want them to settle in their lives because it is easier. I want them to marry a man like their daddy-- a man who loves them and takes care of them emotionally, physically, and financially. I want for them to have values, morals, and character traits that when they go to bed at night, they have no regrets. I want for them to have respect and be respected... I want for them to have defining moments and to never disappoint themselves.

Mommy Time - Outs

"Every Mother has the breath taking privilege of sharing with God in the creation of a new life.  She helps bring into existence a soul that will endure for all eternity. "


This quote was given to me when I had Alivia-  it is sooo true!  I can't think of anything more special than being a mother.  "MommyHood" is a new adventure everyday... some days I am really good at it and then there days when I need a Mommy time-out!


I think this morning was a day that I needed a time-out... Wow!  Poop at 7:35 a.m. from Audrey and then a screaming Alivia over not having an Elmo DVD in the car!  What did my parents do without the capibilities of watching movies in the car?  How did we all function?  It is nice to have, but I think I am missing out on spending some quality time with the girls... I remember  the car rides as the perfect time for my parents to quiz me on what was going on in my life. 
Mommy time-outs are essential in the life of a mother-  I look forward to the days when I can lock the bathroom door again and take a bath without Alivia coming in and asking if she can get in the bath with me... I can't imagine what it will be like when Audrey is able to open the door as well!  Life is going to continue to get crazier. 
Although there isn't a lot of "me" time lately, just look at those two faces.... I am a  lucky girl!  Those two (even in their devilish moments) are the two brightest stars in my life. 

An Ordinary Person in an Extraordinary World

I always wanted to be something special- something that people would look at me and admire all the things that I achieved. Growing up, I really thought I would use my singing voice to accomplish this, but obviously that didn't pan out.
Last night I was holding Audrey as she was sleeping and for a moment, she woke up and looked at me. Even though she was still practically sound asleep, she smiled~ that big smile that shows her teeth and her dimples. Then she closed her eyes and snuggled in a little closer to me.
I realized that I am not just an "ordinary" person-- I am a mommy to two beautiful "extraordinary" little girls. Life didn't turn out exactly like I thought it would, but for me it turned out better. And, I get to use my singing voice to sing lullabies to Alivia and Audrey who are my best audience.