Unfair expectations...

I have unfair and often times unrealistic expectations of my daughters. I tend to expect them to be perfect and for them to know things and do things that are impossible for any four and five year old. I try to relax and go with the flow, but honestly, that is so not my personality. I am an over achiever, semi neurotic, worry wort who can make the smallest issue a much bigger problem! I am a nut case! I really like things to be perfect or to at least appear to be perfect.... Including my precious girls. It isn't always fair and I know that God has a plan for them.... As stated before, I need to step back and pray that Alivia, Audrey, and Adyson have a strong faith in The Lord and then allow HIM to work his will....in myself as well.

Saturday mornings....

It is so nice to have a nice relaxing Saturday with my family! I have had a rough week.... One full of disappointments and struggles.... A week in which I kinda lost faith in everything around me.  It isn't always easy to make everyone around me happy- in fact it is near impossible!  I've tried... Really tried and just when I think it is all okay, someone or something pops up!!!  Grrrrrr....... Right?  I tend to look at my cup as half empty.... It's a personality trait that I'm not overly fond of.... I am trying to turn that around and teach myself and my girls that the only way to really "fix" something is with faith and prayer.  Honestly, I haven't prayed much this week.... I've cried and whined about certain situations but was holding out turning it over to God.  Hasn't been the most effective plan! But-never fails that through his grace, he shows me all that is right with my life- a wonderful and supportive husband, 3 healthy and happy daughters, an extended family who is supportive and loving, as well as great friends!!!  My cup runnth over.....

Friday Morning.... Is there enough coffee??

Not sure what is up with my girls this morning.... everyone (including myself) is in tears!!  Seems like nothing is going to be simple today.  We have made it through two surgeries on two different girls this summer (Adyson with tubes and Audrey with tube removal and adenoids taken out) and Bobby's two wrestling trips... so, yes summer is still as hectic in this household as any other time of the year.  
I try to remember that it isn't right to be jealous of others and what they have compared to what I have... but, this morning I am struggling to maintain that good christian attribute!  I would love to have some of the luxuries that others seem to have.. i.e. vacations and days off from reality! I can't remember the last time that I had only one responsibility... taking care of myself and being in charge of only my happiness.   I realize that this sounds extremely self-centered and selfish, but I would like a day every seven years to be selfish!  
I'm not asking for pity or even an "I know how you feel" - I just felt like putting into words the emotions that seem to be taking over my morning.  I know that my feelings of being overwhelmed is the most likely the problem with all my sweet peas this morning... they are feeding off of my tears and emotions... but, sometimes I just can't help myself :)  So, another cup of coffee and maybe I will stare at the screen saver picture on the computer of the deserted beach!!!